fill # 3

Finally!!!!!! RESTRICITION!!!!! I took three fills but I think I am there. After the dr filled, he made me take two big gulps of water and I felt the difference instantly!!!!! I have been dong the three days of liquid (on the second day) and I actually feel stuffed after I drink one protein shake. I never thought that would be possible. I did schedule another fill in four weeks just in case I think I need a little more. I am supposed to switch to mushies for three days after tomorrow but, HELLO, Valentine’s Day!!!!! We are going for dinner at a nice Italian restaurant. I will order fish and a soft veggie. For dessert (this is where it gets naughty) we are going to the melting pot for some dark chocolate fondue and perhaps a glass of bubbly (naught x2). I plan to take home most of my dinner and only have a few bits of fondue. I made some yummy soups for the time after and in between. Maybe I can lose 6 lbs before we go to Florida. We are going the first week of March. Wish me luck!!!

Realization

Ok, I have beat myself up enough. It does not help and it does not make me feel any better. The relization is that it has been 3 months since my banding and I need to get a grip and be real with myself! I had grand visions of where I would be at this point. Comparing myself to others, I created totaly unrealistic goals for myself. I have not even had my my thrid fill to bring me to "real" restricition. That dr appontment is the second week in feb. My doctor has explained time and time again that I will not feel restriciton until after my thrid fill. So I am going to relax and try to understand that I can not undo 30 years in 3 months. and that my goals need to be long term because this is for the rest of my life. I need to admit to myself and everyone else that I have not been doing all I can to help my progress along. I have not been making time to go to the gym. This is one I will continue to struggle with. Working full time and going to school full time and family time make me tired exhausted, I lose motivation very easily when this happens. I need to understand that this is not an all or nothing type of thing. That is the attitued I have toward all most everything else in my life. Even a walk here and there is better than nothing. I have felt like if I do not go to the gym 2-4 times a week, then its not going to make a difference. I know this is not the right attitued and I am going to try my best to work on this. Also, I have not made the best food choices. Those 100 cal snack packs are great...but not when you eat 2 to 3 of them. I need to focus on protein first and eat when I am hunger, not when it tastes good. This is the hardest thing for me. I  need to not drink with meals and I need to drink more water.
      So, I am going to weigh myself in the am. I am gong to make good food choices tomorrow and I am going to drink at least 80 oz of water and even if I do not feel like  going to the gym after work, I will walk for at least 20 min around my complex. Wish me luck!!!!!
    

Yes I am avoiding...

Well hello,




I hope everyone had a great holiday! Mine was fun. I did not eat as much as I normally would, but I did eat too much and I enjoyed a few glasses of wine. Bad band girl, I know. I did have my first fill yesterday. All the waiting...all the delayed excitement....all the fanaticizing about little clothes....I get 3.5 cc's. That's not even the half of it. I feel almost no restriction and I do not get filled again until the January 18th!!! Why dear band gods do you make me suffer so!!!!! I told my surgeon that my appetite was pretty much back to the way it was before surgery and there is no way I can eat 1/2 a cup of food for a meal, even if I have five meals like the nutritionist told me to, and be remotely satisfied. He then replies "You will still be able to eat as much as you did before surgery right now, you will not feel the restriction until after my 3rd fill." If I follow this stupid schedule my third fill will be in February. This is so not cool. The he tells me, "I told you that in the beginning, don't you remember?" "If you wanted fast results we did discuss the bypass." Ok, I do really like my doctor a lot, but he is very matter of fact and at an emotional time such as this, it made me want to jam the hubber needle in not such a nice place. So my plan of action is to call the office on Friday and beg them for the love of Pete to give me another fill!!!!!! On top of that lovely pile o' crap, I was up 1.2 lbs since the last time I was there. Sorry this was not a very uplifting rant but I needed to share.

Meal on the go

Hello there,

I want to share with you a cute little meal on the go I found over the weekend that is tasty. Bumble Bee chicken and fat free tuna salad. Its so darn cute, tiny spoon included. If you do not like relish or sweet pickels you will probably not like this. But I do, so yay! I think this would be the perfect meal size once I get my fill. Since I do not have a fill yet, i had it as an inbetween snack. The chicken has 140 cal and 9 gram of protein total and 8 sugars for 3.5 oz. I think this is perfect for my desk draw at work. I am gathering a goodie bag for when I return to work on Dec 2nd. I am filling it with protein bars, these little meals, and I tried the fullbar today, that was also yummy. I am on the hunt for other desk draw, purse friendly foods so if you have any suggestions I would appreciate it. ttfn

Crazy Town

Ok, I am making some not so great choices and eating a little too much. I think I am a little more hungy than usual. I am not sure if this is because I am eight days late for my . butI usually get like think when I pms. Being 8 days late kind of freaked me out so I called the doctor, the nurse said that this is normal and I may completely miss this month due to the stress on my body from surgery. I did not exercise today, tomorrow is a new day and I am going to tryy to curb my snacking and exercise. Getting a little nervious for my weekly weigh in on Sunday...I will keep my fingers crossed.

Food blog- a little late anf a little naughty

Ok, the past few days...

yeaterday, i do nto know if i can remember everything but here goes.
Meal 1- carrot cake made with protein from clean eating recipe, with supper yummy lite cream cheese and greek yogurt with a little lemon zest.
Meal 2 - chicken salad with lite mayo and greek yogurt and melba toast
Meal 3- six inch subway turkey sandwhich with 1/2 of the bread removed- drank it with milk- got stuck
Meal 4- zuchinni pasta with sauce and a few shrimp
Meal 5- protein shake
Crazy Stuff- sugar free coco with a few baby marshmellows, 1 pack of 100 caloire lorna dune cookies, and some rice dream
3 mile walk

Today-
Meal 1 - sugar free carnation instant breakfast, melba toast
Meal 2- chicken salad with melba toast
Meal 3- zuchinni pasta with sauce and shrimp
Meal 4- soy joy bar
Meal 5- green baens, sweet potato, pork, small piece of bread

Amy

Amy,



Thanks for the comment. Reids response is if you want to go then come. He knows how I feel about these events. I think the dress is just nice party dress not too formal. I am about a 16ish. My body looks more like a 20 I think, you have a small back and from your last vanishing back fat pic, you have a tiny waist. I on the other hand am built like a football player. Big back, big waist and my upper arms are the size of a skinny girls thigh...well so I think. I can not wait for the day I look cute in a sleeveless dress. But your right, I am going to give my selve time and re assess how I feel at the end of Jan. :)


xoxo